Waking from multi-dimension
awake.
something..
i feel like 'walking'...
effort? trying?
what? what?
reaching, for what?
i don't know what's going on, again...
a tunnel, some luminescence.
falling, sideways, towards light..
reach out arm to catch fall.
hit something, pain, headache, darkness...
Awake.
I'm on a carpeted floor; in a room with colored walls -- blue.
Inhale, then exhale, notice headache, again.
My body is exhausted, but I do not know if I am hungry.
Do I want to get up? Does it matter if I do anything: a little thirsty, maybe need to pee?
Awake.
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I smell, feel and see a cat, named 'Rusty'. While petting the cat, I start to getting up thinking that it is past time to feed her. No, Rusty is not mine, not my responsibility. Am not sure how the cat gets in here. Looking around to see if anything else needs my effort (attention). Nothing is burning, no tv on, everything seems to be in the proper place. I walk about the room, kind of pacing.
I am back, the test was successful, to a point. Great Success! But what's the point. The headlines say 'A trip to nowhere - Hosannas!' Some people will say: 'A bridge to nowhere, let's spend lots of money'. Sarcasm is the last refuge of a failing imagination. Scientists will marvel, though. Does it prove string theory? Sure, why not.
I sit down and play with some papers. I hate having to decide what to do next. There are a million things to do next, but nothing useful comes to mind. No money to be made. No friends to impress. No path to follow. The room has a door, but there is no path, only possibilities.
I decide to eat a meal and go to sleep. These are things that must be done sooner or later and will give me time to think, to decide. It has occurred to me that smokers would grab a cigarette or pipe and smoke in the same situation. The details of getting a cigarette, a lighter and slowly lighting up are tasks that take up time, help in creating a delay. One has a feeling of 'action' without the stress of making progress on something. Could one convince everyone that other tasks would accomplish the same thing without using/employing a dirty, unsafe habit? Addiction is a factor, but I'm not sure in what way.
When deciding what to eat, feeling my hunger and picking what my body needs are the main factors. If one is with others, either at a workplace or with a family, then a consensus is achieved and a schedule maintained. But as I am a loner, consensus and schedule are not necessary.
Loners have a kind of dull, timelessness that many can not accept. Also, loners must be self-starters because they lack the stimuli that others provide. One must cultivate motivations and set a pace.
I pace in the kitchen, opening shelves and the refrigerator selecting from what is available my meal. I resolve on my current favorite of hamburger, rice and green beans; with whole wheat bread for the 'bun'. Thick white wheat hamburger buns are almost impossible for me to eat. I also prefer brown rice. Salt and any sauce for the rice and burger are unnecessary. As my funds are low, single serving ice tea from scratch will be my drink.
My motions of cooking are similar to a smoker's motions, but more useful and healthy. Personally, I try to set a consistent pace with my life, knowing going too fast is a speed that can not be maintained, while going too slow results in sloth or underachieved goals. In that vein, when running for exercise I think in terms of 10 klicks or a marathon, not a sprint.
Going to School
What to do? And how to do it.
Athletes get a paid trip to the school when deciding which one they prefer. I'm leaving for the University of Illinois without having been there. Drive there; find & get into my dorm room. Also, classes need to be finalized. Then there is the small matter of meeting my roommates.
I'm not a people person. Something always goes wrong. Long-term friendships are impossible. I'm also not a fan of traveling into the unknown.
I've packed the car with the little there is to take with me. My family & I have said our goodbyes. I am feeling a bit spacey, lost at sea.
My life is a series of habits. After summer, there has always been school, it seems. But, I've always lived at home. Does this mean my home is me?
I am climbing into the car, but mother comes out. What makes up the relationship between mother and son? Nothing is closer than being in a womb. With birth there is a rude separation. Then when taken to school for the first time there is another level of separation. Now, moving away takes separation to another level. I am not happy. Some people are natural explorers. I am not.
Mother wishes me well. She probably knows about my discomfort. I vaguely try to create a plan that will stop this trip, but it is hopeless. I climb in the car, wave & start my trip.
State route 51 is a road & flat land, mostly. There is LaSalle-Peru and the Illinois river crossing.
What am I doing? I have an idea. There other people like Leonard Susskind & Brian Greene that have an idea about String Theory and how it describes reality better; how it fixes logic problems that current established theories fail to resolve. I listen and try to make sense of it and anticipate where they may go wrong. A lot of little extra dimensions seem a silly add-on. A mathematical construct. Nothing like the book Flatland. What are they missing. I come up with a two-part answer. One is that these little, curly extra dimensions may be connected to each other. The second is that size doesn’t matter. If they are outside our normal three dimensions, why would they have to follow the rules of those dimensions.
I the early days of computer programming, there was a lot of talk of interfaces. There is a CPU chip and you tack a lot of equipment onto the chip to make it useful but there must be an interface between the chip and the equipment. Parallel ports, serial ports, keyboard controller, bios chip connectivity & a video interface of some type.
Well, okay, can I make an interface to these extra dimensions. They may be ‘small’, but if size doesn’t matter then a port to that extra dimensional space may be possible. If I can understand the boundaries of that space well enough, then I can create a transitional wedge into it.
This idea is driving me to the university. I am on the road. I am not traveling in a flying car of the future, but in a used, red Chevy with a 283 cu. in. V-8 engine. My stuff is in the back seat & trunk. If I drove a motorcycle, how could I bring my stuff?
An engineering degree has a practical side. It seems to me that theoretical physicists are always begging for money. It is hard for me to think of begging for money. It is easier to say that I can bring something extra to engineering. I could always design a better faucet or toilet if the other thing does not pan out.
Getting my Research Space
Dean Chen seems laconic today. The school wanted me here and is willing to give me lab space as a freshman. Getting it today means a quick start to my efforts here. I do not need much; the space and access to basic equipment will give me a chance to supplement the standard classes with the beginnings of my research. I was able to show potential at high school and the space will let me hit the ground running.
Doing something new involves a unique point of view or access. Admittedly, it is hard to come up with something special in high school. Just getting along is difficult enough. I’ll tell you something: schools stick to basics; if you want to do something special you’ll need to do it in your own time. The best approach, if you can do it, is to stay ahead of the class, and with the extra time that occurs, work on side ideas that can produce something interesting.
The idea I’m working on involves string theory in physics and how small extra dimensional areas exist. To prove that string theory is valid, one could figure out a way to demonstrate to the independent observer that existence. In order to observe an extra dimensional space an ‘interface’ or transitional zone must be constructed. In this way, on one side the regular space of three dimensions exists, on the other the extra dimensional space exists and the interface allows one to observe the other side.
While in high school it was enough to describe the problem to impress the University. Now with this lab space, I hope to demonstrate efforts to create the interface. Assuming the pocket dimensional space is attached to our normal space, the solution is to manipulate that attachment in such a manner as to create a hole of transitional space that can be kept open.
Two or three people may be able to help me. An electrical engineering student can help me with equipment design. A mathematician can help me in that area. As a mechanical-industrial engineer student, I can help with equipment design & construction.
Interface can be a confusing word in the sense that it is both general and specific. Mathematicians have an idea about interfaces. Computer programmers have their idea what it means. I have my ideas. Creating this interface will have at least the problem of getting the people with which I am working on the ‘same page’. The mathematics will drive this project, but the relationship to the real world has to be maintained.
My Work Partners
Paul Sorenson has been suggested to me as someone that could help with the electronics. Anybody that is going to help will have to maintain their own studies. I will probably have to convince him that his contributions will not monopolize his time. The mathematician, however, may be more flexible because she may be able to mesh the work in with her studies and the work might be publishable. I have already corresponded with her and she will be at the university this year.
As a mechanical engineer I tend to look at something as a construction of pieces. When IBM constructed the first PC, the simplified the problem in the same way, using many off-the-shelf components. But how can I build an interface. To start I need to create a pin-prick to a quantum level and then build a transition to the macro world. My idea is to create a three-dimensional interference pattern in an electric field such that a spike of positive charge will act as a point pushing into the extra dimension. A cone of positive interference will grow as the distance from the pin prick increases. The pieces I am building from are the emitters & the supporting equipment. Like Thomas Edison, I will need to test various materials for the emitters. It is assumed that the extra-dimension(s) are extremely small & that there will be a massive amount of change in scale.
A great deal has been made that the universe is made up of information. For instance the question of whether information is lost when something falls into a black hole. Some physicists speculate that we live in a holographic universe. Well my interface will scan the information in my body and support the maintenance of my existence as I move into the extra-dimension. Since my existence has a lot of repetitive information, it will be possible to store the data in a quantum hard drive using an encoder.